notes to myself 23

and we try to overwrite memories, in vain.
We hope we can do the exact same things, remembering the past, recreating the present, in hope we overwrite the past.
It doesn't  happen as well as you hope it would.
It happens in a way you aren't in control of.
You then resort to hoping that the other version of the same day same time happens in way that the current memory gets destroyed with passage of time, with new, powerful memories.
I hope you had a good diwali.
A new life, a new movie, a new movie.

In retrospect, I think it was okay the last time around, the same way it was okay this time too.
I hope you never have to go through what i had to, I hope you had already forgotten what I tried hard to erase
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I think I have a much larger memory than I had hoped I had.
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So I am going to make it tougher than I had hoped it would be.
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Why is it that we hold on so much than we expect we would?
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In fragmented sentences, in fragmented thoughts,
I capture memories that I wish to forget.
In measured words, in censored versions,
I pray not to remember you.