DVDs. Truck loads of them.
I binged. Bought like 120 of them.
At ten/twenty bucks a piece.
Total expense 1600.
Thanks Chinni for the heads up. I wish I had listened to you two months back.
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I miss her terribly and I constantly worry about her.
Who wouldn't?
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I went to HLC international school today and met Mr.Srikanth there. He is T.M.Krishna's bro. And it's a very small world. I think he likes the idea. Let me sell it to him and then come back and gloat.
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I finally have some faith. And some belief. And some hope. That I might just do well for myself.
Pls do remind me every time you meet me to work my ass off though. Will you?
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Another evening spent with Bala. We spoke about things we like. Movies, and books and people from history and theatre, and acting and a li'l bit of gossip.
In a surprising moment of honesty I told him about my personal life. He was surprised. But never said anything.
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Here's a shameful secret.
I weighed 90 kilos the last time i checked.
That nine zero.
For the first time in my life.
I am going to join a gym. And run and run and run.
Please help me lose weight. please no?
My target is to become 75 kilos by end of 2011.
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On the way back from his place I realised something. I have this constant need for a mentor. I need someone to keep telling me that they are doing something worthwhile. And that's what makes me want to do something worthwhile with my life. (may or may not be what my mentor is doing) It's like I need to know that there is some sort of a purpose to life and I need to reassure myself that people around me who I look up to are doing something with a purpose.
The days I don't have a mentor, the days they are out of my mind are most certainly the days that I aimlessly waste away.
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Corollary to previous realisation is this - I always look for purpose in people around me. I almost entirely base my life on them. I am of this theory that life is quite meaningless and that one must find someone with a purpose and just stick to them and ride along with them and help them out and in the process find some happiness.
If you leave me alone in an island I would most probably just set everything on fire and die in like half a day.
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I am waiting to see how I am going to act up. I am almost certain that I will. Historically speaking, I have always acted up under current circumstances.
This time around... I am just waiting for the right moment. Or inspiration. Or some such thing.
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I am scared, you know? Of myself. For myself.
I am scared I am gonna end up on the streets one day.
I am scared that I will kill someone or be the cause of someone's death.
I am scared that I will run away from the most important people in my life right when they need me.
I am scared that I will be forgotten very soon.
Most of all, I am scared I will be someone mediocre.
I binged. Bought like 120 of them.
At ten/twenty bucks a piece.
Total expense 1600.
Thanks Chinni for the heads up. I wish I had listened to you two months back.
----------------------------------
I miss her terribly and I constantly worry about her.
Who wouldn't?
-----------------------------
I went to HLC international school today and met Mr.Srikanth there. He is T.M.Krishna's bro. And it's a very small world. I think he likes the idea. Let me sell it to him and then come back and gloat.
----------------------------
I finally have some faith. And some belief. And some hope. That I might just do well for myself.
Pls do remind me every time you meet me to work my ass off though. Will you?
------------------------
Another evening spent with Bala. We spoke about things we like. Movies, and books and people from history and theatre, and acting and a li'l bit of gossip.
In a surprising moment of honesty I told him about my personal life. He was surprised. But never said anything.
-----------------------------
Here's a shameful secret.
I weighed 90 kilos the last time i checked.
That nine zero.
For the first time in my life.
I am going to join a gym. And run and run and run.
Please help me lose weight. please no?
My target is to become 75 kilos by end of 2011.
--------------------------------------------
On the way back from his place I realised something. I have this constant need for a mentor. I need someone to keep telling me that they are doing something worthwhile. And that's what makes me want to do something worthwhile with my life. (may or may not be what my mentor is doing) It's like I need to know that there is some sort of a purpose to life and I need to reassure myself that people around me who I look up to are doing something with a purpose.
The days I don't have a mentor, the days they are out of my mind are most certainly the days that I aimlessly waste away.
-----------------------------
Corollary to previous realisation is this - I always look for purpose in people around me. I almost entirely base my life on them. I am of this theory that life is quite meaningless and that one must find someone with a purpose and just stick to them and ride along with them and help them out and in the process find some happiness.
If you leave me alone in an island I would most probably just set everything on fire and die in like half a day.
---------------------------------
I am waiting to see how I am going to act up. I am almost certain that I will. Historically speaking, I have always acted up under current circumstances.
This time around... I am just waiting for the right moment. Or inspiration. Or some such thing.
-----------------------------
I am scared, you know? Of myself. For myself.
I am scared I am gonna end up on the streets one day.
I am scared that I will kill someone or be the cause of someone's death.
I am scared that I will run away from the most important people in my life right when they need me.
I am scared that I will be forgotten very soon.
Most of all, I am scared I will be someone mediocre.
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