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Hello man.
How it goes?
My day was okay. More or less. I spent a major portion of it staring at an excel sheet. I made it from scratch today. And to think that this sheet of numbers is gonna determine my life for the next 18 months is a little scary. But its empowering too, because in a way, i get to choose my destiny.
Today was some function at home. My mum had invited Revathy athai home for lunch. There was special food too. Vadai, Paruppu pradhaman, kathrikka kootu, vazhaikka usili, pooshnikka sambar, rasam and raitha, and rice and curd. It was a feast on a leaf.
My mum exhausts herself putting these function feasts together. Its a lot of time spent in front of the stove and on top of that she has all these madi-aacharam mannaangatti (sand-cake) issues. I suggested to her at a later point that I will get her a cook (a pious, clean brahmin woman at that) and she flatly refused it. She won't be okay with any intrusions into her fortress. But then she confessed so humbly that this is her only duty in the house and if i took that away from her, then she would be quite jobless.
And at that moment I sort of understand what she means. I know what it feels like to take away the only 'purpose' in life. Please don't think I am exaggerating if i say that I going thru a bout of purposelessness right now.
I tried counter arguing that she could get a new hobby, like read books, or visit temples or hang out with other aunties in the area, and so on. She said, she could do all that but none of that would match the satisfaction she gets out of feeding us. She then went all mega-serial on me and declared that the day she is unable to get up and walk to the kitchen i should go look for a cook.
The rest of my day was also about the excel sheet. You know what. I don't trust the guy i sent the sheet to. I think he is going to put personal interest ahead of the company's. I honestly don't trust him. I hope for the sake of the company that I am wrong. I keep hearing these distant warning bells go off everytime i interact with him. But that could be more from the mistrust that happened over our personal tiff more than anything else. I am not sure anymore.
I then took my dad to the temple. While i waited outside, I spoke for a longtime with buay and rashwin. OH!!!! I almost forgot to tell you dude.
I am going to B'lore this weekend!!!!!!
I think I need this vacation. To say that I have had a rough month would be putting it mildly. So the plan is for me to take the Lalbagh Express on friday at 3-30pm which will drop me off at K.R.Puram by about 9pm. Buay has promised to pick me up and take me to dinner and then home. Saturday will be lunch at rashwin's place - his parents are in blore. So homemade lunch and then evening we are attending their colleague Kurt Gilby's budday party. We intend to get super drunk and pass out at his place. Sunday morning means Oil massage and head bath and then Andhra meals. Sunday night I am taking the train back to chennai.
I want to meet a few people too. Maybe i will meet Brinda. I want to meet Rehaz. I am not sure if he would pick up my calls though. I want to go congratulate him on his new job and maybe buy him a beer. I doubt if that will happen. I want to goto Blossom and buy truck loads of books. I doubt if i will do that. I want to goto Corner House and have death by chocolate. I doubt if i will get there.
But more than anything else, I want to take you along to blore....
I am sorry to put you thru emotional crap like this man.I miss you and I hope I will get to meet you sometime soon. I know things haven't been great between us, but I am sure we can put all of that behind someday and be what we were... Best friends for life. If you need me to sign on the dotted line someday, I am sure I will be ready very soon. In about half a year? But it is really your choice.
How was your day like? I know you are doing great at work and I am very proud of you, dude. You are growing at an amazing speed that sometimes startles me. In a year, you will be ready to do great things... Do your own thing, or move on to bigger roles and eventually realise your dream. Not very far off. And nothing is going to stop you. Not me, not your family pressures, nobody can stop you. I have heard that determination in your voice. You have what it takes and you can do it. Just make sure you never doubt yourself. Not for a second, ok?
Take care man. Enjoy yourself. I know you need a vacation too. Please take one as soon as possible. Go for a trip to pondy or something, with friends... Or goto a nice quiet hillstation or a beach resort with someone you want to be with. And just forget about all that went wrong and forget about all your work issues and just chill the fuck out. I know you need it.
Peace out, bro.
Suresh.
PS: On a completely different note http://www.facebook.com/ChennaiRTFF
http://sudhishkamath.com/2011/09/20/chennai-roof-top-film-festival-revival-heist-night/
Check these out. There is a potential story somewhere in it.
Hello man.
How it goes?
My day was okay. More or less. I spent a major portion of it staring at an excel sheet. I made it from scratch today. And to think that this sheet of numbers is gonna determine my life for the next 18 months is a little scary. But its empowering too, because in a way, i get to choose my destiny.
Today was some function at home. My mum had invited Revathy athai home for lunch. There was special food too. Vadai, Paruppu pradhaman, kathrikka kootu, vazhaikka usili, pooshnikka sambar, rasam and raitha, and rice and curd. It was a feast on a leaf.
My mum exhausts herself putting these function feasts together. Its a lot of time spent in front of the stove and on top of that she has all these madi-aacharam mannaangatti (sand-cake) issues. I suggested to her at a later point that I will get her a cook (a pious, clean brahmin woman at that) and she flatly refused it. She won't be okay with any intrusions into her fortress. But then she confessed so humbly that this is her only duty in the house and if i took that away from her, then she would be quite jobless.
And at that moment I sort of understand what she means. I know what it feels like to take away the only 'purpose' in life. Please don't think I am exaggerating if i say that I going thru a bout of purposelessness right now.
I tried counter arguing that she could get a new hobby, like read books, or visit temples or hang out with other aunties in the area, and so on. She said, she could do all that but none of that would match the satisfaction she gets out of feeding us. She then went all mega-serial on me and declared that the day she is unable to get up and walk to the kitchen i should go look for a cook.
The rest of my day was also about the excel sheet. You know what. I don't trust the guy i sent the sheet to. I think he is going to put personal interest ahead of the company's. I honestly don't trust him. I hope for the sake of the company that I am wrong. I keep hearing these distant warning bells go off everytime i interact with him. But that could be more from the mistrust that happened over our personal tiff more than anything else. I am not sure anymore.
I then took my dad to the temple. While i waited outside, I spoke for a longtime with buay and rashwin. OH!!!! I almost forgot to tell you dude.
I am going to B'lore this weekend!!!!!!
I think I need this vacation. To say that I have had a rough month would be putting it mildly. So the plan is for me to take the Lalbagh Express on friday at 3-30pm which will drop me off at K.R.Puram by about 9pm. Buay has promised to pick me up and take me to dinner and then home. Saturday will be lunch at rashwin's place - his parents are in blore. So homemade lunch and then evening we are attending their colleague Kurt Gilby's budday party. We intend to get super drunk and pass out at his place. Sunday morning means Oil massage and head bath and then Andhra meals. Sunday night I am taking the train back to chennai.
I want to meet a few people too. Maybe i will meet Brinda. I want to meet Rehaz. I am not sure if he would pick up my calls though. I want to go congratulate him on his new job and maybe buy him a beer. I doubt if that will happen. I want to goto Blossom and buy truck loads of books. I doubt if i will do that. I want to goto Corner House and have death by chocolate. I doubt if i will get there.
But more than anything else, I want to take you along to blore....
I am sorry to put you thru emotional crap like this man.
How was your day like? I know you are doing great at work and I am very proud of you, dude. You are growing at an amazing speed that sometimes startles me. In a year, you will be ready to do great things... Do your own thing, or move on to bigger roles and eventually realise your dream. Not very far off. And nothing is going to stop you. Not me, not your family pressures, nobody can stop you. I have heard that determination in your voice. You have what it takes and you can do it. Just make sure you never doubt yourself. Not for a second, ok?
Take care man. Enjoy yourself. I know you need a vacation too. Please take one as soon as possible. Go for a trip to pondy or something, with friends... Or goto a nice quiet hillstation or a beach resort with someone you want to be with. And just forget about all that went wrong and forget about all your work issues and just chill the fuck out. I know you need it.
Peace out, bro.
Suresh.
PS: On a completely different note http://www.facebook.com/ChennaiRTFF
http://sudhishkamath.com/2011/09/20/chennai-roof-top-film-festival-revival-heist-night/
Check these out. There is a potential story somewhere in it.
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