whereas on one side i am gaining perspective, little by little.

on the other i am losing words.

One at a time.

whereas today i have a slightly better idea of what it means to be average, what it means to run a family at less than 10000 a month,

i have no idea how to express this to people.

I seem to have misplaced some of the sentences.

they are making strange patterns inside.

muddled up, swirling around

like the potty when you flush.

i can think up an epic and not know how to put it into words.

how unfortunate.

this is one of those battles with self where i am fighting with my perceptions of myself.

pls to ignore.